"She Gets to Choose"

“She Gets to Choose” The messenger in this painting wants me to talk about choice. She asks me to share a story about my live-in relative, who struggles with opportunities slipping away. She’s no longer able to live alone, fix her own meals, drive or work. She mourns the loss. Every breath is a struggle as she fights her fate. What can be done? Roll over and die? Give up the will to live?

In meditation, I bathe her in healing light. I see her choices when she does not. I see them big and small:

to breathe or not to breathe?

to shower or not?

to take medication or refuse?

to see the beauty of the day or focus on what’s missing?

I understand. I really do. The losses mount up until she feels buried alive. Losses are like ghosts—alive only when we focus on them.

I hold her in light and love. I see her grief that comes out in flashes of profanity and tears. I feel it. Yet, I hold onto the truth of what I know—you get to choose how you feel minute by minute, hour by hour. Your life counts even when you can’t see it.

Mixed media on 18” x 24” cradled gesso panel. 

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